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Show 695' And yet, I could see through Aunt E l s a ' s example, that the protective walls of my study, the attenuated focus of my mind, the deliberate d e l i n a a t i o n and circumscription of l i f e - insular at the expense of other aspects - could r e s u l t in increased understanding, just as a telescope sharpens and • enlarges a s t a r ' s image so that r e l a t i v e distances and sizes can be comprehended, while the naked eye is overwhelmed with Ud * need for the immensity and grandeur of the sky. Perhaps the border and specificity had produced the idea that the path to heaven is straight and narrow, while h e l l is equated with too much awareness, the confusion and jading of having been sated with knowledge ~ constant change and ever-increasing choices, an openness without discrimination. Yet some people were able to maintain a balance of openness and conviction. AuntS a£a h for instance, kept allegiance to the Principle and my f a t h e r , even when her own father put the law on the family. S t i l l , she had not stopped loving her paternal family and even defended her f a t h e r ' s right to dissent. Even tough her mother had died during the years of t h e i y s t r a n g e m e n t, AuntSa/anad not r e t r e a t e d from l o v e ' s pangs into 4 narrow field of worship. She had become a singular example for me of how to love without c a p i t u l a t i o n , of how to stand for principle against familial disappointment, of how to preserve the kernal of individuality without ignoring the p o t e n t i a l of group-need during the years ,h four winds, even^when we were s c a t t e r e d to the tour w I thought of her kindnesses over the years - of the time we l e f t for Mexico and she had teased me out of my fear * t f the slumber p a r t y upon our r e t u r n to Salt Lake City |