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Show with sudden doubt. Several days after Ezra's funeral, days without sleep or food, he lay beside Charlotte, trying to focus his distraught feelings. Charlotte, in her stupor, could offer him no consolation. He felt utterly isolated, and as he regarded his hollow-eyed wife, it seemed he watched a mirror of his own vandalized soul. Then, suddenly, a vision came over him. He recorded it in his journal: "...the side of the room seemed to vanish. I saw ...a beautiful soft light approaching...I saw my boy in all the beauty of health and strength...." He described Ezra's smile and a heavy golden chain which the boy extended, saying, "See, Father, not one link is broken." This vision or dream -- whatever it may be, for it is no use trying to capture or define such experience in another -- restored Grandfather's faith in God, in a resurrection, and in his church. On the basis of 'personal revelation' -- the Mormon belief that God speaks to individuals -- Grandfather drew on dreams and visions throughout his life to make sense of his reality. Like Joseph Smith, who had founded the Mormon Church after a 'visitation,' like Moses, or Christ, or Martin Luther, Grandfather clung to his intensely personal communion with God until the voice of conscience shouted down all other voices of the world. It had not always been so. Although Grandfather had descended from two generations of the Church's proud, overt poly- |