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Show 5P/1 "The command to l i v e p l u r a l marriage is founded in reason, as all of God's laws are founded in reason," my father had announced throughout my l i f e . "Eugenic breeding is part of God's plan to improve the human r a c e ." Although his words seemed proud and Nazi-like to me now, I remembered that he had always faood. them wmh humble speech about the ultimate r e s p o n s i b i l i t y of our position, the necessity of conducting our l i v e s in harmony and joy, of living to the best of our a b i l i t y . "More will be damned by this Principle than saved," he had reminded us, reading from the scriptures, his voice catching as though he doubted even his own a b i l i t y to l i v e i t to salvation. In those days, none of us had believed he could f a i l, not even the mothers. I had believed that God would scoop up my father and h i s e n t i r e family, s e t t i n g us on the North Star and saving us from the final destruction of the world, which a f t e r a l l , could happen any day. 'We are living in the last days. The judgements have already begun.' As I child I had believed that my s a l v a t i o n -- our salvations -- would depend upon my f a t h e r , t h i s magnet of perfection that would draw us a l l to completion and l i g h t by h i s example or through our very kinship with him. All we had to do was to follow, stepping n e i t h e r to the r i g h t nor to the l e f t , but treading carefully in h i s f o o t s t e p s . Then we would not f a i l , would not fall. But i f we stepped off the path, daring to think or decide f°r ourselves, we would l i k e l y be hewn down, a corrupt branch bearing corrupt f r u i t , destroyed to save the tree-, the family- Was I wrong? Had there been no jealousy, no competitiveness, no anger but mine? Had the family been as perfect as the grown- |