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Show in my father's house/ 245 Chapter Eight Perhaps because of our outlaw roots, my father couldn't afford to sanction any form of rebellion in the ranks. When we pursued independence, acting out our heritage of free will and personal belief, my father stood unyielding in his leadership. And a paradox began to unfold: My father who rebelled against Church authorities, could not endure the reflection of his rebellion in his own children. Saul and Jake and Danny - not so delighted by the move as I - resolved to keep our Nevada house for the summer, while my mother, little brother and I headed for Salt Lake to stay with Aunt Helga and search for a new home. Living in the downstairs apartment of the grey house, listening to other people walk and talk in the space that had once been ours evoked a numbing, dreamlike feeling somewhere between sleep and waking. The white house hadn't changed in any perceivable way, yet |