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Show 6~Z0 How can two men be so a l i k e in character, yet so different in behavior? I asked myself. It had to be form - form d i s t i n guished one thing from another - poetry from drama from fiction, epic from ballad from l y r i c . The essence could be the same, but the form would vary, i n d i v i d u a l i z e. But unlike my f a t h e r , whose sense of form seemed overdeveloped to me, Brian had no b e l i e f in social order. His only relationship beyond the disgruntled , kinship, to me and the vague,unsatisfying companionship with high-school cronies was the philosophical s i m i l a r i t y he shared with student radicals - the drug-using, flower-power hippies. "And they wouldn't have me i f I t r i e d to join up," Brian commented. "To SDS, I'm one of the bad guys." He had spoken of q u i t t i n g work and keeping v i g i l in front of the military r e c r u i t i n g s t a t i o n s in order to dissuade young men from enlistment. "Young men." It was strange, hearing him say t h a t . He was young, barely twenty years old, but he was old i n s i d e . "I'm s e n i l e , " he had told me. "I've forgotten why I'm a l i v e ." All organized effort seemed dangerous to him: I n s t i t u t i o ns °f learning, big businesses, governments, religions - especially religions - were suspect. "You can't believe what I ' v e done in the name of organization. The Marine Corps pulled and pushed and beat on me u n t i l they made a monster. I ' l l never take the chance of that again." "But a r e l i g i o n - - Brian, t h a t ' s not the same as a military organization." "Tell that to Cervantes. Tell that to Jesus Christ Himself. They felt the s t i c k of r e l i g i o n . Look, an organization i s an °r§aniZation. They might wage war d i f f e r e n t l y - t h e y ' l l even |