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Show (p05 including the divorcee. She would be l i k e so many of my friendj most of them pgaas^ searching for a good man^ . '-•£ would be glad to share as long as he was good and trustworthy and as long as he-had some geuine masculine power. Arl f e l t for my mother, her pure soul sensing the presence of sin. And for my father - what did I feel for him? My renewed f i l i a l devotion was being sorely tested, worn against by my mother's sea of pain and sorrow. Her lips were pinched and her eyes flashed anger. "He always said he would get our consent. When a woman married into the Principle, she imrries the s i s t e r - w i v e s , too. And to fulfill the law, they must be willing to give t h e i r husband to the new g i r l . Well, i t seems she paid no a t t e n t i o n to that aspect of i t . She d i d n ' t seem to care about i t at a l l - she'd get into the family - - or else!" "You mean - Daddy d i d n ' t even want her?" "I don't know. I don't know. All I know i s that we opposed it and he said, a l l r i g h t , he would t e l l her no. 'I don't know whether s h e ' s unworthy of us or we of her,* he said, 'but her schemes and dreams will come to raw13k.' And then she charged him with r e s p o n s i b i l i t y for her soul. She said, 'You introduced me to the Principle, Brother Allred, and if you don't help me l i v e i t , y o u ' l l bear the weight of my damnation.' "But she comes from a n o t h e rW of l i f e , " I atemsmml, banging my f i s t on the t a b l e " so that *** our coffee-cups rattlfhg. "It doesn't apply to her!" And then I remembered how I had overc my anger and b i t t e r n e s s toward my father. "It doesn't apply to anyone. No one can be damned because of what someone else does," I whispered. "Daddy won't be damned for what I did - he won't be damned for what you did. How can he be damned for the behavior of a stranger? We're a l l , a l l of us responsible ome |