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Show 532- said, 'I might have to thank my father for my l i f e , but I don't have to love him for i t . ' My own son said t h a t . He simply couldn't bear the pressure, the social embarrassment of his polygamous background. He was ashamed of his father and of his origins, so he turned away from those who love him most." My f a t h e r ' s chin had l i f t e d , his eyes narrowed with a hint of pain. I could read the thoughts in his face: My own son turned against me. Absalom, Absalom. My son, my son. Another item on the l i s t of persecutions. A round of correspondence followed, volley upon volley of words, each bombarding the preceding l e t t e r . The fact of the exchange was d i s t u r b i n g l y similar to the corresponence between my f a t h e r and h i s father, Grandfather Harvey. My father had been about the same age as Saul when he had written to dissuade Grandfather Harvey from publishing his book in support of the P r i n c i p l e . But unlike my father, Saul was not converted to h i s f a t h e r ' s point of view. He refused to follow in the footsteps of his fathers. Soon the l e t t e r s petered out. Saul made a phone call to my mother, saying t h a t he "feared for her soul," because he suspected that Joseph Smith was a con-man. He had not lost his f a i t h in God or Christ, he reassured her, but he couldn't continue in the Chftych in good conscience. Upon hearing t h i s news, my mother entered the f i r s t stage of a nervous breakdown which was to o u t l a s t a l l the others she had suffered. It was only p a r t i a l l y a t t r i b u t a b l e to Saul's r e b e l l i o n . She had been questioned by the stake president who wanted her to accept the p o s i t i o n of Stake Primary Organist (for she had played for the Primary Organizition for years, |