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Show (,17 Himself." »I don't think so." Her thin lips curved in disdain. "But He was so loving, so much in balance..." She only grinned as though she knew something I didn't. I ducked my head. They thought me a fool -- even Brian gave me no regard, although he sat by and said nothing. I began to have nightmares. I dreamed of leaches clinging to me, and Danny laughing as I tried to pull them off. I dreamed that Brian - gifts I had j^^rsr^srs:- sent to him; had thrown them into "z^ZISZ. garbage cans. I had strangeplotted dreams of wives murdered for insurance money. I dreamed that I stood with Danny and Brian at the University, staring from a great window as hydrogen bombs were dropped in the valley of Zion. 'We'll die,' Danny s%d. But I wanted to kneel and say, 'No. We will repent and receive Life Everlasting. * But when I awakened, I did not understand my dreams. I longed for a way out of the labyrinthine nightmares and began to pray nightly that I would be protected from them, that I would find some way out of them. One night I had a dream in which I was imprisoned in a government building, surrounded by 'the authorities' who were forcing me to write for them. And then, I dreamed of escaping, of taking a ticket that Saul had sent to me and flying through the sky on great »'.^ wings toward the Montana ranch where I would meet LaMarr and where I would write letters*truth and freedom to my brothers and sisters - my brothers and sisters all over the world. "Brothers and Sisters," I wrote. "I come to you with love in my heart. I come to tell you Mfte truth that shall set you free. You must be free to make clear choices. You must be free." |
