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Show sr</ ow. ! thought that I had borne only friendship for Sd, vet only moments before I had yearned to k i s s him passionately. Time had changed. All around me - the roaring river, the murmur of aspen, the gentle wave of brush and grasses - seemed an eternal plain, a moment to which I would return again and I t was a rare moment of wholeness torn by decision, again throughout my growth in space and time. A i t was a crossroads, a point of reference. There was a decision to be made, a dedication in the offing. One road led to war, the other to peace. I sat beside Brian as he3^^11171801 h i s g u i t a r . . . b e t t e r , it seemed, than he had played before. "You've got to love everybody " he sang. How did one love everybody? If I loved Sd the way he wanted me to love him, I would lose Brian. If I loved Brian exclusively, we would lose Ed. My heart burned with shame and confusion. I loved too much - too much altogether. Suddenly I f e l t l i f t e d on e a g l e ' s wings. I saw myself on the bridge looking into the roaring river- The r i v e r was inviting, cool, exciting. But the current was swift and I would drift on forever and drown in the ocean. There was a way to love without drowning. I gazed at the deepending shadows The s p i r i t s of my grandparents see^med near. ^ of my mountains.4 I would not plunge; I would climb, anyxnxns else would b X l S S i d k , I looked at Brian and f e l t a halo of light surround us. Our love was not gone, nor our t r u s t - <+ . , i-v~ p^iHo-n Elates in the mountainside it was only hidden somewhere, l i k e Golden -laxes m Someday each gram of t r u s t would be revealed again. " I t ' s cold," Ed complained. The ^ Qf u s I gathered wood while Brian struck a f i r e . A s a t together on a stone and watched for awhile as the shadows encroachedAour l i t t l e flame. I gazed up at Brian. His face was chiseled clean |