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Show Inside Out, 164 If I apologized to Leslie, Mom would hear it and know I wasn't really like that. But then, I would be apologizing just to prove something, right? To prove I wasn't really like that? And wasn't that a phony, manipulative thing to do? This bugged me enough that I even talked to Joseph about it. He said, IVe thought about it too, Andli. Who am I? Am I the person who did the awful things that I did? Or am I the person who feels so desperately sorry for doing them? I've decided that the best I can do is concentrate on the kind of person I am right now. Maybe I lost my temper before, but I can apologize, right? Only I cant Not from here. I guess thaf s why I need you. To help me atone. Or at least to help me minimize the damage I did. I never knew there was a girl like you, Andli, who thinks so hard about how to feel right inside. You're smart And you're good. You'll figure out whaf s right to do-because thaf s the kind of person you are. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me. If he thought I was good, Mom must, too-right? I wanted to talk to her so badly, wanted to hear that she approved of me. But hearing it from Joseph was awfully nice, too. It was cool that he kept writing to me, and not just about Terra. Maybe he felt obligated to be my friend since I had started pouring my heart out to him. Maybe he was lonely for some conversation with someone alive. Or maybe he just wanted to hear whatever I had to say about Terra. Whatever the reason-and I didn't really care anymore-I couldn't deny that we were developing our own friendship, and that I liked talking to him. J: Andli, Whaf s brown and green and falls from trees and kills people? Me: I don't know. What? J: Pool tables! |