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Show Inside Out, 121 She looked kind of shy. It suddenly occurred to me that she might be afraid of me, a little. That seemed so strange. Why would she care what /thought? Stupid, awkward me? When she was so gorgeous, so put-together. So perfect. No, too bizarre. "No, no. It's just that-I just like being where I can look things up fast and stuff." "Oh," she said. It didn't look like she believed me. Then I got a brilliant idea. "And there's this really cute guy who works there..." I said. Bingo. Leslie's face lit up. "O/i!" she said. "I get it now!" She was all grins. "Well, have a great time!" "I will," I said, and took off. From: Joseph <desertsageJoseph@yahoo.com> To: Andli <Charcoalchic(a)vahoo.com> Dear Andli, I'm sorry about the delay in my response. Part of the reason is that I've been very busy looking for your mother. I think I might have a good lead. But I have to admit that the real reason is that I was trying to get up the guts to answer your question. You'll see why. I know ifs stupid of me to keep it from you any longer. Because if things work out the way I want them to and you and Terra become friends, she'll tell you soon enough what happened. So I should just buck up and tell you myself. But I'm scared of what you'll think of me. Which is stupid because what about all the other people? The people who came to my funeral? The people at church? The people who watched me grow up? The people who saw how what I did devastated my parents and my sister? Do I not care what they think of me? Of course I (to. Of course I have. Ifs part of my daily agony. Ifs a big part of why I'm trying to save Terra. |