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Show 388 She had the pump turned off! She could not do what anymore? Life? Why would anyone let her do that? She was on as much ofthe depressive Versed as I normally am at least sometimes - we had once compared dosages - so why would anyone let her make a decision like that when she was on Versed? Was she on Versed when she decided this? My brain is struggling with the questions, trying to fit Georgia's dying into reality. "She died just a few hours later," the voice is saying, interrupting the incredulousness of it all. "Did she die of massive spasming?" I am wanting to know, a thought horribly threatening to me, but - no -1 was told she died peacefully. It would be impossible to discontinue my treatment and let me die peacefully. I would die a horrid death, in painful massive spasming, slowly sinking certainly into a vegetative state crisis where all my organs, starved for oxygen, would fail, one by one. "No," I am being assured. "We turned off the pump and gave her morphine to make her comfortable. She didn't go into massive spasming. She just stopped breathing a few hours later." I am not believing any of this. This cannot be real. I am crying now and as I let the tears flow and then subside I can tell that this person on the telephone is also upset and had not wanted me to know this. |