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Show 369 "21. plant a lot of daffodils in my friend's yard, as she did with me, so it will look wild and pretty and natural "22.1 want my children to know I will not ever be far from them" "Not even if I die," I am telling Carol. "I will always be there. It is important they know this." I am asking her to star this one too so I will remember to tell them when they come next. "23.1 want people to know I am not a hero or inspiration and that they could do this" Being an inspiration keeps me so far from people. If I am an inspiration, they do not have to see thVpain. This is painful. Making this list is painful. "24. "Maybe if I leave number 24 blank, I will not have to die soon," I am telling Carol $he is laughing. If I keep writing, another new one for each fulfilled one I cross off, thekj^jl^not die, I am thinking to myself. I will not be ready until everything on my list is crossed off, after all. Faith has said this happens, that people hang on until they have finished then unfinished business. My nurse is still laughing gently but I do not think it this is funny. I think it makes good sense. I do not care if it is the Versed that causes me to think this makes good sense. |