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Show 213 "I haven't taken that drug for a long time," I am asking, "so why do I still have this sense of impending doom?" "Most drugs are quickly metabolized," she says. "But some will stay with you for a long time, stored in fat, for example." There is a short silence. "These things just happen sometimes." It seems as though it is more than "sometimes" with me, I am thinking. While it is true that I have taken many, many prescriptive drugs, it is also true that I have had many, many bad side effects, adverse reactions, and even allergic responses to them. "So is there a solution to this?" I am asking her. On one level, my religious beliefs remain intact. They are not based on pure emotion. But at that raw emotional level, I have lost all hope. "I really don't know," she is saying. "It should eventually bum out of your system." "Eventually" is a long time to live without hope. It was not worth the casual experiment. |