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Show MADELYN CANNON STEWART SILVER 140 than a month of convalescence. The doctors warned, suffer to some extent from vari however, that she would more likely cose veins the rest of her life. From that time she wore, at least in her home and on the ranch, special-made black shoes that everyone called "Aunt Mac shoes." II Reflecting a mild manifestation of the "postpartum blues" coupled with an increased family responsibility and stressful management of three children, Madelyn came to recognize that "her" Harold would never be quite the same as he had been in the early years of their marriage. More and more he was preoc cupied with his work, and although she recognized and accept ed that change in their relationship, she also acknowledged her own need for a literary outlet; she joined with others in organ izing the Jane Herrick Literary Club, about which more below. The first explicit acknowledgment of her disappointment in becoming second wife to a man married to his business was a January 1936 diary entry: I feel that the lilt has gone out of our love. It has been this Harold thinks of noth but his work, although he tries to be nice to me and the way since I started to have phlebitis. ing three children." On another occasion she wrote: "When Harold playfully calls me Madelyn Stewart, I feel like shouting, 'There is no such there is nothing left of the person; she is dead.' For now was proud to be." She decided to put on her I that Madelyn satin pajamas and green robe that Harold had given her and go out to gaze at the moon." The moon-gazing must have improved her outlook; her fas cination with Harold quickly returned. Two days later she wrote: Harold phoned early that he'd like to come home to sup he was too tired to work longer. He stayed per at once as home about 45 minutes and was off again. They have orders |
