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Show MADELYN CANNON STEWART SILVER 94 beating of the sea, and arose to watch its moonlit beauty from the window, hoping to absorb some of its power and its resig nation. "21 The trip was pleasant, Caldwell was congenial, but Madelyn did not sense the fire of love. Twenty-six-years-old, unmarried, she continued to be unhappy. She did not understand Caldwell's reluctance. Did he no longer love her? Was he so preoccupied with his studies that he did not want to commit himself to mar riage? Madelyn kept wondering-was it he or was it she? The she was with him, she wrote, the more poison it generat ed. She still loved him-or thought she did-but how could she love someone who treated her so casually? She decided it would more help for her to write her feelings in her diary: First of all, we have lost our understanding. How we did about to doubt if we ever did have it, but no, 1 must recognize the sweet fresh glory of that first so is no matter now. 1 was year of ours [1925-26]. Our joy at the first discovery of the possibility of our love; our letters, spontaneous, sweet, ideal istic, with a trembling joyous reticence on my part for fear of the unlastingness of the thing. And then his return, and the ecstatic jubilance of our day at the Ranch." On January 29, 1928, Madelyn and Caldwell agreed once more to sever relations. The next night, Harold Silver, who had been attempting to pursue her since the summer of 1924, "came back"-he once more began to ardently court her. "I remember the sun room that night, with his awkward arms suddenly thrust about me, and my queer consternation at his intensity. 1 stopped him and we were both so excited we hardly knew what She asked him to "hold off" for a couple of days. On February 1 he called from Ogden, said the required wait was over, and took her for a ride. "On the long ride he told me of to do. "23 his love in the most glorious terms. He compared me to the moon we were watching. He kissed me suddenly and fiercely, so that 1 cowered back a little frightened. 1 did not know then how "24 "I have drunk deeply of his enthusi infinitely tender he is. asm, his kindliness, his glorious understanding," Madelyn |
