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Show -128- s e l l his house - or rent i t. The very thought of making so major a move now increased his sense of weariness. Besides, how did he know i t would not be the same a t another university? Also, there was a feeling inside him that rebelled against running away from such troubles, even when they had come so l a t e in his career that he seemed Incapable of having any great influence over what had to be done? As he got into his automobile, his arms seemed so weak that his hands shook on the steering wheel. This -was another problem? Why was he over-reacting so to the events of the past week? Was i t his illness? Was i t from frustration? Or was i t simply from the energy he had to expend in actions that seemed now so f u t i l e. Until he had got out onto Nineteenth Avenue and had turned south toward the Peninsula, i t hadn't occured to him that his s i s t e r - i n - l a w ' s illness might also have something to do with i t ? He had always been fond of her, and now she appeared to be dying? A feeling of g u i l t came over him as he realized how l i t t l e thought he had given to her condition these past few days? Strangely enough? the emotion seemed cleansing^ He forgot about the meetings? about his lost writing time^and he failed even to grow angry; as he usually did? at the sight of the almost bare h i l l s of the Peninsula, only recently covered by groves of pine and madrone. They were now blanketed with rows of look-alike houses that only empha- |