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Show 192 window sills Dee wasn't there. She left a note saying she had to shop or clear up some aamix administrative matter about Derk Delco Sr. downtown, though after awhile she didn't leave any xax notes, she just showed up in the afternoons and played cards, though even then she barely talked to anybody but Jon. "So what are your boys really doin everyday, honey?" Dee'd ask. "Top Secret," said Jon. "I can understand that," said Dee. And then one day she didn't come. Helen went over to Dee's and went through the iBBkBaxBBBxxwkaxxBxBxdtidtxxxxaxxxBx unlocked door to the kitchen when nobody answered knocking and calling. She found a note on the table. Good luck Helen, honey, had to go on a mission. Top Secret. - Dee And that was it for Dee. They found her that night in the Bay. And that was the night I was born. Which should explain a lot pf things, not that I can explain them, or not that I would if I could, if you haven't figured that out yet. Some people can explain things and some can't, and those that don't leave you a lot better off than those that do, and I ai£ didn't think that up ax myself. So Bush held me in her arms that night next to Helen's bed, and Helen thought about the night her father died, and she thought about the night Red left San Diego for Midway, though at the time she didn't know it was Midway, she just knew ii subliminally it was some big male experiment with deaf, and now that xx night Dee was dead and Bush held her first baby, and Bush said, "Red's still alive, you xxx have your first son, things could be worse." Helen hadn't been praying fervently for quite some time, she'd said her usual prayers and gone to mass on Sunday but she hadn't axaxxxxi really prayed fervently for quite some time, but now almost everything she did was a prayer, everything she said, half of it was to God, and she said, "God, I don't understand why things turn out the way they do." And Bush held me in her arms and said, "He flips a coin." |