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Show 68 "I almost died last summer. I got shot in the leg." I pulled ax down my pants and shov/ed him the scar, which was still plenty big and red. I saw his eye whites then, and he dropped to the ground, whop, like a sack. He showed me his wound in the same place. It was a lot bigger. His whole thigh was covered with xxxxkiBttxaxaxxxxkaa purple-white wrinkled skin. "You only fought you were dyin because you were scared." His left hand was scarred the same way and he was missing 3ti&st xfeeste two fingers. "You can't be scared if you want to learn anyfing. You haf a to be cold and analytic like the scientists in movies." He grinned at me. "How did you get shot?" I told him about Funster. He told me about meditating on shot gun shells. "Maybe I should go over there," Willie said, pointing to Funster's. "Though I no longer want to be shot in the limbs. There is no deaf in the limbs, or maybe they have their own deaf. I have been finkin about blood and many of the organs. Also maybe the brain." "I don't know," I said. "The nuns x tell me the body dies without the soul. No soul, no life." "The soul is a blackness like deaf," said Willie. "I been finkin there has to be deaf in you already. No deaf, no soul. "I don't know," I said. "Well how come you belief the nuns?" I didn't say anything. "Maybe you should be finkin instead of beliefin." "Well how do you know about this blackness?" "I do not. That is why I am experimentin." Well there I was facing Down-down Day and there was Willie thinking about death. It seemed axaxxx everybody I knew was smarter than me and nuts too. "Do you do any thinking about anything else, other than death?" I xxxx- asked him. "Yes," said Willie. "Some. But deaf is my specialty." So I figured maybe he'd know what I should do on Down-down Days. He listened with his crippled hand on his chin. "I cannot be specific," Willie said when I was done, "because I haf not personally examined the situation. But for me there is deaf. After that there are only two fings, axxax experiments and v»,tryv^ypyy|r3rv8fxka£xiBxaaaiaBXXxXaixxxxikBxaxgBXxaaa£ |