Sadie Arnovitz Appleman, Interviews with Jews in Utah, Accn 998

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adie Appelman p. _4 sid 2 L Then u m ved back t h re? A . I moved int m m th r's home until I found something. After my mother died I m ed in with m father to my mother ' s home. L EYen '"hen ou were married. A Ahum. And myhusband used to travel back and forth from Bingham. Then after my father died, theni moved to Federal Heights. LF How did that 'ork out- you and your husband living w/family SA Just He'd --he was there andhe used to come in, sometimesm the weekends and sometimes during the week several times. Had Natalie, about 2 years old. That's when I moved in with Natalie. LF You never did y lose your sense of independence SA ever. LF Even though you went through a hard time. SA I did . I always took care, always you know, always realize that I have a living to ake for my children, to raise them, I never wanted to come to anybody. And I had wealthy family. My oldest brother is extremely wealthy. But I didn't want anything from nobody.And my brother Irv was a waealthy man. But I always to live, always something with my own two hands, I wanted to do it, with this and that. I used to just do my own thing. Raise my children. Raised them beautifully. Got two nice girls. And very fine girls. Down to earth girls. And one married very well. The other one too. t- Both of them married men that I couldn't hand pick and they-- one is marreid 32 years on June the 15th. L why not remarry. SA I had little childrn. I had a little difficulty with my youngest daughter she didn't ever want me to go out ¢with anybody. And I was perfectly silly, I should have gone. I had gone out. And I had many opportunities but I didn't want a step father for my children. Stupid me. LF You felt more for your children than your own f~elings. L What would have it meant if you had a stepfather. SA My youngest daughter, she was. My husband was very very good and nomatter­nothing was too good for my children or me. And I said, who's going to ever take the place of my husband. Who's going to take care of doing it like -- and I felt that something would be wrong if I--I felt it sort of a guilt. L Becuase you'd be replacingyour husband .... SA Yes, which was very foolish. Truely when I stop and think back of some of the nice, you know, that I culd have had. But ... I was in a bad way.