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Show 47 much desire. I am glad my term will close in two weeks- and then I must try to smooth these wrinkles in my face that I fear have gathered there the last few months for with wayward youth teachers are compelled to be firm and sometimes stern-and 0 more than all I must remove these frailties and weaknesses, these impatient and jealous feelings that occasionally beset my nature. I must be good. I must be noble, true and faithful. June 18 0 what glorious news I have! Miford is coming in the first company and will be here in three weeks. I cannot write my joy for I must hasten away to my school. How can I content myself there when I have so much to do at home. I must summon all my patience and the time will fly by. 0 I must hurry, haste, hasten. Monday Morning June 26th 1871 This morning I arose at four, hoed in the garden till five, then after going through some cooling ablutions I returned to my room and beside the bed where my two darling sleep I fell upon my knees to pour forth some of the deepest emotional desires of my soul. I love to commune with my Father for I know His manifold kindness and goodness. Milford is now sailing upon the restless waters, the deep fathomless boundless ocean where thousands of souls have found a grave. But Oh I feel that there is a Father whose protecting arm encircles him, for Milford has been true and faithful to his God and his holy religion. My prayers shall constantly ascend to Heaven for that dear husband who is the light and life of my existence. When I picked up this book a few moments ago I thought I would pen a few of my distresses concerning the multitudinous duties I have to perform but I am glad I have written upon a loftier theme. The most that troubles me is that I will not have things as I want them when Milford returns-but I will do all that lies in my power and I know he will not blame me or think I might have done more.7 Whether or not all was in readiness, Milford did arrive on July 12, as Ellis's next entry attests. Friday Morning July 14th, 1871 How long since I wrote any of my experiences or thoughts, but indeed I have had many. How different are my feelings from when I wrote last. Then all hurry and bustle preparing for a day that for two years I have so fondly |