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Show CHRYSALIS PAGE 172 if you died, I'd never get over it. It was self-preservation." "Then how did you finally do it? Why did you come?" "Does it matter?" "To me, yes!" "Because I love you. I really do. I'm sorry." She starts to cry. "No, I am sorry. I love you, too." When I tell her I am sorry she looks at me in astonishment. I realize now that Jenny still thinks I am going to die. And she has come here to say. . . what she has just said: Happy landings. She really thinks £ am dying. I am touched. But what impresses me most is that she came because of it - or perhaps, in spite of it - by way of a farewell. And it is harder for her than for me. Damn. Damn. Damn! I resent it. I am pleased. I am depressed. I am elated. (Ambivalent? Me?) So what do I say now? Denial? Acknowledgement? Reassurance? I haven't the slightest idea. Anyway. I think everything has been said. "Oh, Jody," Jenny says quietly. Her voice cracks. "You sure scared the hell out of me." "I scared the hell out of me, too." Indeed. End of episode, |