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Show 2H 'I‘Ill'. l).\lll{ lr‘tllt‘lCH'l‘ FOUR? as soon as I elimb out ol one fear I tumble into another. 'Iihey are not physienl now. but t/mrs'r.' IJI/tl'. The last hit seems rather silly. i liut I‘ll leave it. .\s to Semyntnw'. .s'eornl'ul with all ol' us. (It eonrse he was \'er\' quiet and Ile told llurward that he‘d eome to take his plaee and llurward went without a word. Semyonrw went otl' then with \ikitiu. looking about. and mak- ing suggestionsl mueh. Ile ehanaed some things but not. \‘CI'V We had been pretty intimate. all pl. us, before lie eame. I had really felt this last «lay that Vladimir Stepanovit‘eh and Audrey \':1ssilie\'iteli were understood hV me. Russians urine and go so. .>\t one moment they are elose to you, intimate, open»heurted. then suddenlyithey shut up. are miles away. look at you with distrust aiid suspieiou. So with these two. ()n Semyonov‘s arrival they changed absolutely. He shut them up of eourse. \Ve were all as gloomy at supper as though we were deale enemies. Ihit the Worst thing was at night. Ilurward and I had slept In one little room, Vladimir Stepanoviteh and Andrev Vas- SlllOYlIell in another. bed. 0t eourse Semvonov took Durwardls There was nowhere else for him to do. what he thought about it. I don't know ()t' eourse he said nothing. He talked a little about ordinary things and I answered stupidly as I always do with him. 275 though he were showing me deliberately how much finer a man he y'as than I, how much stronger his body, that he eould do anything with me if he liked. He asked me, very politely, whether I'd mind blowing out the eandlo and I did it. at once. He watched me as I walked across the Iloor I and I felt ashamed of my thinness and my ugliness and was light the Irnow Um! he knew that I tL‘KLS ashamed. After blown out I heard him settle into his bed with a great heavy plop. I couldn‘t sleep for a long time, and at every move- me. ment that he made I felt as though he were laughing at to And yet with all this I had also the strangest impulse put to room, the across get up, there in the dark, to walk What my hand on his shoulder and to ask him about her. I should would he do? Ile'd refuse to speak, I suppose. of thinking be must He . only get insulted;and yet. . . her of all the time just as I am. He must mm! to talk did. And perher and I know her better than any one else and yet every . . . haps if I once broke down his pride I felt that I time that his body moved and the bed ere-aked to him again, hated him, that I never wanted to speak He is right to that. . . . Oh! but I'm ashamed of myself. despise me. . . . Saturday, July $15!. It is just midnight. I am on duty I hated the Solemn way are not. likely I think Io-night. Everything is quiet and there ille was a long time cleaning: his teeth, $35 no sound eXeept his comb scraping through his beard. I am sittingr in to be any more wounded until the morning. strange to think the room where they brought Marie. It‘s a (‘zlllt Ile in a dar. k Of that, and when you're sitting with It's odd in this atl'air room you can imagine anything. a book here, a "Ileport how little things atteet one. There's idly the other day and 0n Xew Mexico." I looked at it opelh‘ at "1.0 now I'm for ever pit-king it up. It always . he room was so small and he seemed absolut‘ielV to [ill it: so that I felt really flullenml against the wall. i It was as , speculating about It same page and I find myself thinking away toin a ridiculous manner. I shall throw the thing he undressed. makure noises in his mouth as though he werevlaughing at 2:1"111:1";Jitnfjittfilliiibinilfidi naked except; tor his shirt, . , . . )(Hlld yery carefully With a pmklet-eomb. He was so thiek and solid and Seornt'ul, not lookmg 31: 1110 0X21(‘tly. just staring in front of him. There |