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Show 30 'I‘III‘ mm I'HIJISI‘ SPRING IN THE TRAIN was shut up iu~illv nu. II‘I'I .r I»? I 1,_ ii In "and". whether there um» amtI ii 1‘ II , w .‘ . . \I 'X , .. Hm..." I "(‘HI I0 I .‘IIIII‘IHI‘QV‘ I \‘..:s \« X: there my inotlwr (IN .I. "'IYHIMK‘HI IIHIIH‘ and II'\'« ll '.7 ‘I‘i‘i- I «Uzi «i IXW \\ X \‘w ?» I" X: '. I I was I...w- 1‘. I "- ‘X~ quite alone in the world." In spite (WInivsrlt I Imi :1 IIIIII‘ mum: viii! . ‘A li'rlI'nYIHHI'O. "llow self-wulrml the in: n is? .\- '7 . ‘.:3IX II‘I'.1\|‘\‘.'('I‘II at all peculiar? Wants Skating up ".an Iiw-Ui; 1' about" Ile seemed to I‘.III'\\' II;"\ II null. I I "You must think im N‘II m rm II? I um. I‘Hr t? ivrwen whole years I thought of Hw‘liih: I‘m 1m «If. Iu‘. miwmble self. aII shut up in TI.:.t IiuTw imam. I Inilml In. no one. I 31 that I was near him; or perhaps he knew and thought it would be good for me. ‘Oh, Trenehard,' he said. ‘He ought to be in a nunnery . . . and he'd be quite safe, too. He'd never cause a scandal!' They thought of me as something not quite human. My father was very old now. Just before he died, he said: ‘I'd like to have had a son!' He never noticed me at his bedside when he died. I was a great disappointment to him." "Well," I said at last to break a long pause that followed his last words, "what did you think about all that time you were alone ?" the woods. I Would \vwndw A r. \‘wiwlv'r. \ ml. 1' .‘IIHvHI III'HIIIC and I grew more and HwI't‘ trigluwnml of talking. HI meet - "I used to think always about two things," he said very solemnly. "One was love. I used to think how splendid it would be if only there would be some one to whom I could dedicate my devotion. I didn't care if I got much in return or no, but they must be willing to have it ready for me to devote myself altogether. I used to watch the ladies in our mg people. HI IIIIIP IIWHI Iliuizrii'rIInI'Xiwx town and select them, one after another. did not even read , I uwl Iw <1 in II.I'1I.‘III{I'I‘III"I';."II|‘III'£II nave and listen to the organ Ill \\'.1II\ in the orwI .uiuls and I? \\;.‘< :Is' IIwXWIl I were on one side of The rim r :HI-I 1h. \‘.('I'«' all on Ihe other. I Would think sonw tizm-s IIII\‘»'\[II1‘IIIII4I it Woul d be ifI could cross-Whit I (wnlwln‘t «row. Ifwrv vmr it Iwame more impossible?" ‘ i " ~. . u Sou wanted some one to take \w-u out of voursc-II'." I 81d, S and then shuddeml at my own IxanaIHv. I \ v I ' me very seriouslv. K. ' ‘ l u he 21I1.~\'Cl‘l‘t'tl. Course. Of all 11r.dld- The} b otie thought 7 lint he Mali I I v "I'iut ( . 1 311r ghed at Int -. -1n}~ own (‘riXI.~111.~‘ ' . to help me. up too soon." who would . we IIIJIIH>>IIIIM III" u‘II‘IS till Sometimes IH‘IJIlIt' II‘IC‘I '1‘thV never went far L‘In lllu'll. 'I‘hev 211W? 1119 i I i He e‘l_dentl}' thinks he wa s worth a lot of tr<JHI)I‘3;" thought Irritabl'v. Katherine and Millie Trenchard, of whom we were talking. "That same doctor Katherine never laughed at me; she was serious and helped (K ‘ ‘ I Of course they never knew and they would only have laughed had they known. But I felt quite desperate sometimes. I had so much in me to give to some one and the years were all slipping by and it became, every day, more difficult. There mts a girl . . . something seemed to begin between us. She was the daughter of one of the canons, dark-haired, and she used to wear a lilac-coloured dress. She was very kind; once when we were walking through the town I began to talk to her. I believe she understood, because she was very, very young-only about eighteen and hadn't begun to laugh at me yet. She had a dimple in one cheek, very (charming;but some man from London came to stay at the Castle and she was engaged to him. Then there were I ‘Iut suddenly he laughe d one day spoke oI me. not IiIlUWIllg |