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Show pg 6 The First Unknown Because I have an addiction to validation, I am driven, everyday, on this stage of life, to play a part that meets the false narratives we are taught to buy into, encourage, and believe. Others share this addiction with me, as this need for validation is not my addiction alone. The scary realization is that we allow these false narratives to become a prescription for how to live life. Living by this prescription has sucked me into a very mundane, repetitive cycle of just doing. It is not living. It is a rut in which the mind says, "This is as good as it gets." Even though it's a lie and there's something inside of me screaming to come out--a desire to express visually a more fun and whimsical world I could live in. But at times this desire is trapped and I have no clue how to release it. "Whisper" Did you just say something? Yes, you the reader. There it is again, can you hear it? Really, is that you? "Whisper whisper whisper." Where is that whisper coming from? Psychiatrist Carl Jung would say the primitive man would give heed to this whisper but the modern man may perceive himself as going insane.1 Probably something I should avoid if I want to come across legit, right? A while back a similar Whisperer whispered this: "Go get your masters." This whispered prompt broke my mundane thoughts while commuting home one day. Being somewhat primitive, I took it as a sign from above. A sign that would lead me to the mythical story that would help me break free from the trappings of life I'd created for myself. The little act of stepping into an unknown would have a major impact on my life. Ahh there is the Whisperer. Cute little guy. The Whisperer kept lurking in my mind, nagging at my subconscious to go get my masters degree. In my disbelief, I tried to laugh it off. It is because of the Whisperer's persistence that I followed through and looked into the MFA program at the University of Utah. I put faith in the Whisperer, and it led to getting accepted into the University of Utah Master's of Fine Arts program with a scholarship. My self-perception went from that of an average Joe, to this cool and smart guy, and I suddenly |
