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Show ^76 uniform but unlike the^orte I had worn which represented a resistence to fascism, and perhaps even a defense of liberty and decency, a tux is the uniform of the privileged, of the rich -- and, anomalously, of their willing servants as well, headwaiters and bandleaders and other sycophants. It is also worn by the middleclass aping the rich, uncomfortable with it and calling it a monkey suit in their attempt to drain away its power. In none of these roles was I comfortable and as soon as I put it on I felt like someone else, like an imposter. I *,*s jtH-fhs so se**v*f«^ ^Wv« **yse/f fU X £e/f jr MtJtd a* /fcrW**^/**, When I put on the black yarmulke I felt doubly estranged, the skull cap something wholly alien to me: I had no idea why Jews wore them,and nor that most Jews don't know either. Someone could have put a ring through my nose and a tassle on my ass and told me I was going as a cow and I'd have mooed. Again we were hauled downtown to that hotel and went up to the hallway outside the ballroom. Postedbn the double doors was a typed notice of the event, with a list of the guests. My name had been left off, and then added at the bottom in ink, misspelled Chris Brocken, and just below that, stamped in large letters: STRICTLY KOSHER. The other ushers got a big laugh out of that. I wandered up and down the hall looking for MEN, found a small place, Ben inside using it. We stood shoulder to shoulder. "I haven't seen much of you lately," I said. "Here I am, hanging* out. With that skull cap, Ace, you look like an Aryan cherub trying to infiltrate the International Jewish Conspiracy." "This wedding is a conspiracy. How's Amy?" "Breaking down." "She's not the only one." "Tough. I'm god damned sorry you got dragged into this mess but right now I can't feel for you. Got a cigarette?" Turning from the flushing urinal, I searched for my pack in unfamiliar pockets. "I had this fear," he said, "that just when I was walking down the aisle I'd have to piss. Besides, they've got this dinky little room for us male leads to dress in and it's jammed full of |