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Show FORTY YEARS AMONG THE INDIANS. 1 9 much pride, always believing myself better than many others. This caused me to preserve myself from de-gradation. There was a feeling continually with me, that if I would keep my body pure and healthy, I would yet find a condition in life that would be satisfactory to me. This spirit enabled me to abstain from strong drink and other worse vices that I could see were destroying the lives of my associates. Notwithstanding this, I found enough to practice in the way of gambling, swearing, fighting, and other rough conduct to feel heartily con-demned in my own conscience. While in Mexico I formed a kindly feeling toward many of the Mexican people, studied the Spanish lan-guage, so as to read and write it and act as interpreter. My mind often reverts to those days. I had been left an orphan at eleven years of age. I then left all my friends and relatives and went out into the world alone, probably as willful a boy as ever lived. No one could control me by any other means than kindness, and this I did not often meet with. The result was, I found myself among rough people in a wild country among those who knew no law but the knife and pistol. The old Texas Rangers and many of the Missouri planters being the leading characters. I often wonder how I got through, and I can only account for it in one way : I did not like this way of liv-ing. I felt condemned, and often asked God in all earn-estness to help me to see what was right, and how to serve Him ; telling Him I wanted to know positively, and not be deceived. I felt that the people of this age ought to have prophets to guide them, the same as of old, and that it was not a " square thing" to leave them without anything but the Bible, for that could not be sufficient or |