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Show 338 "Could you describe this feeling?" "Well, it was a l i t t l e like looking over the edge of a tall building and wondering if you're really going to jump." "What did you go up to the top of this building for?" asked one of the men on the other side of the table. "I don't know, actually. I mean I didn't go there with the idea that I was actually going to do i t ." "But you're not really describing a feeling of reluctance, Elder Hood," said the mission president. "I'd really like to know what was going on in your mind that day. I mean did you think there were going to be extenuating circumstances that would make i t all right, or what?" "No." "Well - " The mission president made a helpless gesture. "Then what happened? We're just trying to find out what happened and why. What led up to it? What was the breaking point? I don't think there's anybody in this room who doesn't know what a sexual urge is. We just want to know what overcame this reluctance you say you had. If she met you at the door with her clothes off, all right, say so." "I think i t may have been when she put her hand on top of my hand," said Lorin. "What?" "She was crying, and I put my hand on her shoulder, just, you know, to comfort her. And she reached up and put her hand on top of my hand. Then she sort of moved up and put her fingers around my wrist." He heard someone swallow. "What was she crying about?" asked one of the men sitting beside the door. |