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Show 480 Loce S~·elches. tempt the afiCctions all too strongly, and links that llut my calmness decci\·ed him, he believed me in bre:~king, bre:lk the heart they bound. Bertha resigned, for he could not trace the agony of dread hr.d been but a few weeks a bride, when the sorrow in which I awaited his reply. He gave it at last, which had once before threatened them fulfilled its as unreservedly as 1 wished, and it was hopeless. mission, and after bnt a few days' sufl8ring the lie talked, however, the usual c·wt with which they little Alice died. There is something in the hea- would cheat the dying; he advised quie t, rctire'' enward departure of infancy, unsullied by 1 he con- ment, :unl freedom from all the excitements of !50· sciousness of care, in the early ceasing to be, of a cicty. \Vith such care. he said, I might still count heart tl.at might have lived on, to suffer so much, on a few years of reasonable and happy life. 'Vhat which is too beautiful, too full of hnpe to awaken folly! as if 1 could even endure the burden of such violent affliction. l<:\·en where the heart had clung an existence. No; ns I have commenced, I must to the little one with all a mother's unwavering de· conclude; there is no backward path for me;] will voted ness, even where life had buried its brightness rnjny a little longer, all my ac·.cuslomcd pleasures, beside the sleeper in th:lt tiny grave, and all that is and relinquish them only when I must give np all. loveliest in the things around, becomes from assu- This is my birth·day; I am twcnty~six to-day. ciation to the bereaved, all that is saddest, yet there \Vhat mournful anniversaries they are, these mileis a light still radiantly shining through the trial, stones along the highway to the grave, these dark and he.:n·en never seems so near to the g-aze of days of redoubled remembrance and regret. 1 htl\'C faith, as when il/ooks up through tears. from child- <~ I ways endeavored to forge\ them, but this, the hood 's gral'e. llut ah me! to Clara all these com· last one I shall ever see, forces mo to feel its presfortings were denied, for the veil was still upon her cnce. 1 ha,·c suffered so much lately that I 01p· spirit. It was a mournful thing to behold that pear to have grown old rapidly; years ha\'e been small pale face so perfect in its angelic repose, to curdled into these hours of sufl'ering. see the little dimpled hands folded peacefully over "They all wondered at roy rebellious agony, and the stilled heart, which had in l\indness been taken even Lynton, who should have known me better, from the touch of sin, and gi\'en rest without its spoke to me of hope and the J1e real"ter. 0! the having known weariness, and then, from that tiny bitterness of listening to such words, as if it was statue of Death in its loveliest and truest aspect, not anguish enough to knmv all he could say, yet to turn to the .mother's frantic and almost blaaphe- find no comfort in it, as if thos~ truths and promot~ s lamen.tal\ons. She gave full sway to her re- mises were not in my sou l a living and consuming bellwus gnef, and overwhelmed at length by her fire; as if they were not the very things which uncontrolled .feelings, she lay for several weeks told me, oh! how clearly, that l should look on my dangerously til. child no more. CLARA·s JOUIINAL. "A~d must I depart with :~:11 my life's high aims nnatt:uned; must I be forO"otten by those who ad- ~~ A long Llank is bet wee~ me and the past, a mired me most, or be rec;lled only in pity by the votd of forgetfulness from wlm:h .1 sht1 ~de r to have ones who now sePk my appro\•al, and envy my come fonh. I have been very til, thts world has gifts~ 1 can feel now, with Corinne, the sorrow of been all gloom and darkness to me, and I have forsak ing a flattering world, without leaving one stood on the very threshold of another. 1f death memorial of the power that must perish with its were nothing.ness, how joyfully would I welcome possessor. But Corinne had other hopes, and a. and summon It, but Hamlet's doubt is mine, I too, trust abo,·c disappointment. H ers was the faith tear the" dreams which to th:ll sleep may come," so alluring- to the enthusiast; the belief so full of , and I ~are ~ot die. I once thought life such an beautiful illusions, that the poet 's imagin:nion inenchantJOg g1ft, and that I had much to live 14)r, voluntarily grasps at its witchery, and is forced to but how suddenly all my blessings seem to have struggle ag:tinst its fascination. 0! could T live dwindled away until every thing, around, beyond, but fi,·e years longer, I wou ld at least toil fur a within, is desolate! '"'hat have I done to be thus place in the world's memory. H ithe rto J have been afilicted ?. how is this to end~ I know not; wou ld 1 too much engrossed by the attractions immediately could bcltcvc what I prufcss, that I care not. surrounding me, too much occupied with mere per- . "I feel tlwt my career is hnstcning rapidly to sonallriumphs, and the future has always appeared tis close, that I am the victim of a fatal and inev- to me so interminable, that the present was not itable disease. I mny live a few months longer, suflicie ntly valued. I could not bear the seclusion and then this feverish madness will be <n'e r. I necessary to attain other success, but now, had I havll been tormented by the desire of certainty, the opportunity, I would write day aud nighr, I fo.r I can bear anyth ing betlcr than doubt, and I would Oring to one point my energies and acquirelaid my case before a ()hysician, soliciting his cn n- moots; I would bequeath at least a fJ.int sem· did opinion. lie had known me long, as one world· blance of my genius, &omething th:'lt should be d~voted,.and I shall never forget the sea rching gaze read and remembered. I would pour forth at once wuh winch he would have read my inmost thoughts. the treasures of my being, that those who knew· 1845.] The Three D'1y.t.-1'he First Day. 481 me, nlight proudly recall the knowled~o of what I was, and those who knew me not, would sigh to picture what I might have been. How I tempt myself with mockeries to the last. Five years~ Why in five months I shall be forgotten, except by the few "hn love me, and who will then mourn me without comfort. I can write no more; my soul is dark, and the shadows every moment grow deeper. I am utlerly wretched, desolate in heart and hope." World-lover! thus the earth-dream ever endeth! JANE TAvLoE \VoRTH INGTON. THE THREE DAYS. both sides of the city. The river is enclosed between <Juays of a sufficient elevation to prevent the highest waters from o'·erfluw ing the city. Tiley ate like a common street, one side of which would be a row of houses, and thfl other, the parapet of the quay. Along them are several public buildings, which, in case of insurrection, Oecome important military positions. The house then occupied by my family was situated on one of the quays on the north side of the rive r, and could he said to have been in the very centre of the ban/e. On the same sille, towards the East of it, is the C11y Hall, (llotel de ville.) Towards the \.Vest is the Louvre, and a liule further, the Royal Palace of thP Tuileries. Just in front of us, on the southern side of the ri,·er, are the Police Barracks and head quarters, together with the Law buildings. Two stone bridges, about a quarter of a mile apart, and between whi(~h we were silllated, led to the opposite side. The one towards the East is the mer-chants' bridge, (pont au change,) and the other is THE FIRST DAY. the new bridge, (pont neof.) Opposite the City Hall is the suspended bridge of Arcole. Oppo- It was on the 25th of July, 1830-the minis- site the Lonvre is the suspended bridge of arts, ters of a despotir., but undermined government , It must be kept in mind, tha t the city of Paris is thought they could crown their work of oppres- full of guard·rooms, to whic:h, at guard- mounting, sino, by publishing and enforcing the Royal Orde1·s. the regiments in ~;rarrison in the city send every But these were destin~d to pro,·e fatal to a family, day a guard, mnre or less stron!!, according to the of whic:h it was so truly said, that they could nei- import<~ nee of the position. E-very public edifice ther Jean1 any thing from the lessons of experience, contains one or more of these guard-rooms, and nor forget any past injuries. The satne they had when any disturbance is apprehended, the number come from exile, the same they were to return to of men sent to each of them is dnublt~. The cit.y exile. The assemllly of the representati vcs of the contains, Oesides, numerous barracks, some of which nation had three successive times been dissolved. are fortified, and large enough to hold a whole The feeble monarch, whose time was di,·ided be- re~iment uf 2,000 men. It is also to be noticed tween his confessor and his hunnds, was made to that the streets are paved with hewn stones exbelieve that hy a mere act of his will, by a sing-le actly of the shape and size of a cube foot, which stroke of his pen . he could annihilate those sacred being taken out with the aid of a Je,·cr, can easily rights of mao, liberty of the press anJ national be raised in barricades or breast-works. representation. From a residence l illie distant On the evening of the 26th, the effect of the from the mNropolis, he thought he could tame that morning news began to be visible. Anxious and mighty lion, the people, and conquer it as easily numerous groups were every where to be seen, as the bucks of /tis fOrests. Alas, what a delu- discn9~ing the eventful occurrences of the day sion! How bitterly was it repented. and their necessary effects. Ye\ it w:ts remarka. 'When the royal orders, dissolving the national Ole, that no anger, no passion cou ld be perceh·ed assembly, and abolishing tho liberty of the press, among the citizens; but the stern and contracted appeared in the morning papers on the 26th, the llruw, the dark frown, showed th<~t the agitation effervescence ti1P.y produced was immense. The then reigning, like the short and treacherous surge opposition papers were short, Out energetic in their of the sea near the breakers, "·as ten times more remarks. One of them, T!te National, ended by dangerous to the ship of tho State, tha!l the boiscalli ng the c itizens to arms, as the only means of tcrous wa\·es of wrath, raised by an empty wind. regaining their liberty and expelling their tyra nt s. The King-, Charles the Tenth~ had. some years That appeal wa.s not to be slighted, before, dissolved and disarmed the national ~uard, S(1me description of tl1e placo will bo necessary or militia, of the whole country, bccnusc he thought to understand the following pages. their opi nions were hostile to his power. But on The city of P aris is built on both sides of the that ominous evening, the beloved uniform was river Seine, which traverses it from E. to ,V. again produced to light, worn by a few courageous Its circumference is ahout 30 miles, and it con- citizens, who did not fear to expose th emsel\'es in tained at the time a population of 800 thousand that way to the ve ngcanee of their tyrants. Tho souls. Several s tone and suspended bridges unite tri-colored flag, that noble standard of liberty fur VoL. XI-61 |