Search for an authentic self in the choreographic and performance process

This thesis explores authenticity, especially within the context of modern dance. I examine the roles that deception, perfectionism, and judgment might play in the choreographic and performance processes and briefly discuss the relationship between art and truth. I also relate my struggles and insights as I work to identify my own authentic selfhood through the creation and performance of two dances. The research shows that self-honesty, self-understanding and self-acceptance can greatly affect a dancer's approach to choreography and performance. It also reveals that claiming an authentic self is not a one-time event, but a constant negotiation, which carries the potential to help one realize a fuller, more integrated life.